Many of you know I’ve been on a transformative personal journey this year.
Because of injuries sustained in an accident more than twenty years ago, the aging process, family medical history and, well, let’s be honest, eating and lifestyle habits that needed improvement, I decided approximately 10 months ago to make a commitment to safely improve my health.
It wasn’t the first time I tried to do this before. In previous attempts I achieved various measures of success.
Still, the old injuries would flare. In addition, a change in jobs resulted in a nose dive in my level of activity; think “extremely” long work weeks and being anchored to a desk.
Yes, a change was definitely in order!
Ten months later my injured back and leg are much improved; plus I had the best physical exam I’ve had in a long while!
The journey to better health has been rewarding. It’s been also physically and mentally demanding, as I faced various levels of physical pain while balancing nutritional needs for various medical conditions.
There is, and always will be, so much more to do to stay steady on this course. Also, from a purely physical standpoint, there is so much more that I still hope to accomplish.
What was surprising..and yet I shouldn’t have been so surprised.… has been the emotional and spiritual journey that has also taken place.
For instance, a few weeks ago when Dan, trainer and motivator, was working out knots in my leg after a workout I experienced a flash of memories from a long time ago.
As the pain from the knot surged through my body I wanted to scream, “Where did that come from…and why did I remember that now?” Incredibly, it appears my body has harbored memories that my conscious mind seemed to have forgotten. It would not be an isolated incident.
So where do I go with this?
Like many women, I’ve wrestled with issues how I thought I looked and how I felt about my body, especially after experiencing injuries. I also had numerous struggles over the years when people were cruel, thoughtless and insensitive.
As I continue this journey I know that I have to address the thoughts and emotions that have come with it. What this means is, I’ve looked back at many events in my life to make sense of how I perceived myself and in particular how I perceived my body.
There is much to express in this area.
I’ve decided that my outlet will once again be my writing. National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) is just around the corner! I’ve been waiting for this opportunity to delve into the emotions and events that have brought me to this point.
NaNoWriMo is meant to be a vehicle to create a work of fiction. I’ve gone through the site and am quite aware that there are Wrimos (participants) who are considered rebels, i. e. they are writing, but not necessarily producing fiction…and no, they are not disqualified!
Honestly, I haven’t decided yet if I’ll create fiction or be a rebel. I just know there are volumes inside me that absolutely must be released!
I’ve given those volumes a title.
Releasing the Body Within will not necessarily be a work about physical transformation. It will be a work to declare that inside of each of us is a body of emotion and spirit that is often trapped and waiting to be set free.
Through it all I plan to have more posts about my own journey and some of the changes that have occurred. I also hope some of this will be light-hearted. There are more photos to share like the second photo in this post!
I have no doubt it will be cathartic…and I can hardly wait!
Be safe, everyone, and be at peace with yourself.
We’re all in this journey together.
In humble gratitude,
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